I love the daisy's!!
Tuesday, September 17
Monday, September 9
Even when the flowers above - lost their petals and purple beauty - I found they have such a striking presence and still add so much value to the landscape.
Erma Bombeck's - quote made me think about the gifts and abilities that God gives us.
At one point in my life - I defined myself as a singer. It was who I was and the purpose of my life. Oh how young and shallow I was.
Then I contracted whooping cough - and between that and my asthma - I lost my voice for about 6 months. I couldn't sing or talk - let alone breath - without horrific coughing fits. (It was a good thing this happened while I was still a stay at home mom and not employed as a music teacher). My head voice (singing voice) was gone. My vocal cords were in spasm. I had to go to vocal therapy.
During this time I learned that I couldn't define myself as a singer anymore. I didn't know who I was. But during my months of silence I learned. I was a mom, a wife, a sister and a child of
God. I learned that I had many talents: singing, playing the piano, writing music, photography, creative writing, and gardening to name just a few.
Eventually - I found out that one of my asthma medications was causing my vocal cord paralysis, and so when I stopped taking it and switched to a different medication as well as continued with vocal therapy, my voice came back.
I guess I have taken a step back from what I learned that year. Since being layed off from my job as a vocal music teacher in June of this year, I have been defining myself again by what I do - and yet - there are so many things I am able to do. I think because I spent so much of my time working towards my degrees to be a teacher, the Bachelors Degree - the Masters Degree - the 14 years experience - that - being a music teacher is what I should be doing.
But - maybe not. I have had a hard time with the 'rejection' that comes with all of the interviews - when the schools don't see me as the person they want in the classroom. And so perhaps it is time for me to take a leap of faith and try something new.
Not quite sure what that will be yet. But I am thankful for the time to think about it and perhaps investigate opportunities. There are so many uncertainties.
But one thing I know for sure - I don't want to stand before God with my basket still full of talents, gifts and abilities that I haven't even tried or shared. I am looking forward to the days ahead - being able to experiment and try new things.
Sunday, September 8
If you have read my blogs for any length of time, you have probably heard me say that one of the things I love most about being a photographer - is that when we look thru the eye of a camera - in our photographs we stop time and enable the viewer to pay closer attention to the details of simple everyday occurrences - we so easily walk by past - without seeing.
Take for instance this dandelion. I never knew there was so much pollen on the top of a dandelion. When I took this photo several years ago - I was amazed at what I had been missing. If I am missing that - on a simple wildflower (I can't call it a weed - it is simply too useful), I have to wonder what else I am missing - by not taking the time to notice.
I want to walk thru life with my eyes open, and not miss a thing.
Saturday, September 7
Trying to talk some sense into myself.
God is in control. No matter the situation, He knows where the puzzle pieces fit. Have confidence that He will be walking along side you - every step of the way - no matter what the situation, as long as you ask.
Friday, September 6
Thursday, September 5
So many ways to look at our circumstances. Are you optimistic or pessimistic? Is the glass 1/2 full or 1/2 empty?
I am thankful for those close to me (especially a certain sister born 10/10/60) who always help me to look at my situation thru their eyes - or the eyes of others as they go thru each day in their lives.
Is what I am going thru - helping me to learn, so that I can help others when I am in similar circumstances? Or perhaps these circumstances are drawing me closer to God so that I can renew my relationship with Him.
So today I pray for confidence to endure the craziness of life, the strength to accept the circumstances I am dealt and strive to be better every day in the choices I have control over and the way I react to the things I have no control over.
Wednesday, September 4
I just had to write a little encouragement for my friends with regards to the MANY prayers that have been offered on my behalf during this time of unemployment for me.
Please do not think your prayers have gone unanswered. They have not. I have asked God to place me where I can best honor Him and serve others. That place hasn't come yet and perhaps I am not ready for it yet.
In the quote above the term 'lading' is a new one to me. It means loading. Our requests to God - sometimes come back with a no. But as Paul wrote in his letter to the Philippians "He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion." One of those promises we know he will keep.
Perhaps then I am still being 'loaded' (or prepared) for what is to come. And so I am thankful for the restful moments from what was my normally hectic life. To be able to take time to meditate and pray, revel in God's masterpiece of the world, and take care of myself and my family in a better way than I have these past few years.
When my husband lost his job and was out of work almost a full year (that was about 10 years ago), we never missed a bill payment. And so I am trusting that during this time as well, there will always be enough (I can ask for extra though, right?) and our needs will be met.
Thank you my dear friends and family for your encouragement and your prayers. God is faithful.
And so I leave you today with one of my MOST favorite verses:
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him, and He WILL direct your paths.' Proverbs 3:5-6